To say this year has been rough would be a greatest understatement. In 2015, I have faced many things I never imagined I would have to deal with. By far, not the worst things I can imagine, but they certainly have tested things: my faith, my marriage, my relationships. The things that belong in my life have survived and become stronger. In the past year, my eyes have been opened to so many things.
Here are 5 things I learned in 2015:
1.) More money doesn’t matter to me.
Sure, more money can make some things easier. It can buy you some things you’ve always wanted to own. It keeps food on the table. It pays the bills. You know what it doesn’t do? It doesn’t build relationships. It doesn’t listen when you need to talk. It doesn’t build up your husband or comfort your kids. It really doesn’t even matter. Sure, it puts more things in your closet or your driveway, but those things can’t truly fulfill you. Only God can do that.
2.) My husband is the most important person I have.
Okay. So I kind of already knew this, but I was DEFINITELY reminded of it this year. We have an amazing relationship. He has been my best friend since day one. He’s the one person I know will stand by me and support me no matter what. If there is a problem, we talk about it and get past it. We don’t have screaming matches or throw around the D word. We fix what’s broken. But, this year, things seemed to break left and right. And you know what? It was hard. Really hard. But we made it out stronger than ever. And I was reminded just how much we rely on each other. And just how much we need each other. And just how much he loves me. And just how much I love him. Seriously. I adore this amazing man.
3.) I have to choose which relationships are beneficial for myself.
People are always in and out of our lives. We meet people daily. Sometimes, they stay a while. Sometimes, they don’t. Sometimes, the ones you think will always be here for you aren’t there. And sometimes, that’s okay. God will put people in your life for a season when you need them. And sometimes, you will try to hold on to people who you need to let go. This year, there were a few relationships of which I let go. Some, I didn’t want to let go. They just walked out or didn’t make me a priority and I decided not to pursue it. With others, I decided that I wouldn’t continue to let those people have so much control over me. This year, I learned that it’s okay and BETTER to choose my relationships instead of letting them happen to me.
4.) GOD IS FAITHFUL.
I’ve known this, so again, it’s really another reminder. Not so much a reminder as a … well, this is the first year I’ve really understood His faithfulness. And by this year, I mean this week. Something we were REALLY counting on and REALLY needed to happen fell through. And we were totally unprepared. And whereas in the past, I have freaked out and desperately tried to figure it out on my own, this time, (after my disbelief and a brief period of “Holy crap. What now?”) I feel complete peace in knowing God will show up. He is Faithful. He will do what He says He will. And right this second, I’m okay with not knowing His plan. And I think He has been preparing me all year and building my faith for this. And I’m so grateful. I am so excited now to see what He has in store for next year.
I’m so glad 2015 is over.
And I’m SO excited for what 2016 will bring!
What did you learn this year?
Love to my loves,